Back in the Old Groove.
Well, I've almost survived through my first full week back at school. It feels so weird to finally be in grade 12 and to think about what will happen ten months from now. I'm happy I stayed sensible and took a last period spare though - that was probably one of the best ideas I could have ever had. Morale is really boosted when you go home an hour earlier than everyone else.
Probably even bigger news is that I got back together with my old girlfriend. I swear, it must have been one of the most difficult things I've ever had to think about doing. When we had broken up, I was crushed, but I had managed to get over it by making myself think that I could do better than her. I told all my friends that it was the best thing that had happened, and that I loved being single.
But I didn't.
As much as I tried to keep the strong facade to others, I still thought about her almost daily. I kept trying to convince myself that it was normal, and that I'd get over her soon. Over five weeks after we had broken up, I still continuously thought of her, and it was driving me mad. I wanted her back, but I had no idea where she was in life. As far as I knew, she had probably started going out with someone else and left me in the dust.
It was Sunday when I had learned that she was feeling the same way, and although my heart kept pushing me to get back together, my mind was worried about what my friends would think of me. One of my better friends had been put in a similar situation a long time ago where his ex-girlfriend had wanted him back, and that went even farther than crashing and burning.
So, after staying up fairly late in the night thinking about it, I decided to at least talk to her. It was strange - I had expected it to be more awkward than it actually turned out. When we talked, it reminded me of why I would think of her, and I decided that talking to her face to face was the best option.
Best option was certainly right. As soon as I saw her, I knew that it was the right choice. We had a lot of problems shortly before we broke up, but I think that separating for a bit was probably the best thing that we ever could have done. I believe that we both matured from it, and that we both realize how much we mean to each other. I really think that it's going to work out.
Well, at least I'll try to believe it out loud.
-Patrick
Probably even bigger news is that I got back together with my old girlfriend. I swear, it must have been one of the most difficult things I've ever had to think about doing. When we had broken up, I was crushed, but I had managed to get over it by making myself think that I could do better than her. I told all my friends that it was the best thing that had happened, and that I loved being single.
But I didn't.
As much as I tried to keep the strong facade to others, I still thought about her almost daily. I kept trying to convince myself that it was normal, and that I'd get over her soon. Over five weeks after we had broken up, I still continuously thought of her, and it was driving me mad. I wanted her back, but I had no idea where she was in life. As far as I knew, she had probably started going out with someone else and left me in the dust.
It was Sunday when I had learned that she was feeling the same way, and although my heart kept pushing me to get back together, my mind was worried about what my friends would think of me. One of my better friends had been put in a similar situation a long time ago where his ex-girlfriend had wanted him back, and that went even farther than crashing and burning.
So, after staying up fairly late in the night thinking about it, I decided to at least talk to her. It was strange - I had expected it to be more awkward than it actually turned out. When we talked, it reminded me of why I would think of her, and I decided that talking to her face to face was the best option.
Best option was certainly right. As soon as I saw her, I knew that it was the right choice. We had a lot of problems shortly before we broke up, but I think that separating for a bit was probably the best thing that we ever could have done. I believe that we both matured from it, and that we both realize how much we mean to each other. I really think that it's going to work out.
Well, at least I'll try to believe it out loud.
-Patrick
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